Had a huge binge today. Damn, I can't control myself anymore :-( I had 3 slices of pizza, 1 diet yoghurt, 3 ice-creams and 200 gram with chocolate. I feel awful. Geez, how could I do this?

LOSER!

I have to se a nurse tomorrow, because my psychiatrist is on vacation. So this nurse are going to look after my weight and ask about food and purging. I have never seen this nurse before. I'm so worried about it. I guess this nurse is an old fat woman that don't understand a damn thing. But I just have to see her 2 times, hopefully, because I'm going on vacation for 4 weeks now, with my best friend =)

TRALLALLA

So I've gaind weigt, over 13 pounds, Yaiks! But I'm still underweight thou, my BMI is over 15, but under 16. *lol* It's so strange, because I don't care so much anymore about my weight, I just care about what I eat. Ok, I want to be underweight, but it's not like I cry for several days if I gain 1 pound, because I know I will lose it again. I still step on the scale twice a day, but who cares? I'm a bit indifferent about my weight right now, because all I think about is this vacation, and that I don't want to ruin it. I know I can do this!

Take care!

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